[Her sister. Their friend. His most important person-- and for awhile, Ikusaba's too. Both times, his creation. And someone they shouldn't talk about anymore.]
it feels like it should
no, I'm not helping. forget about it. um
steve rounded up a bunch of old movies and a vcr back when stuff was falling from the sky if you want a distraction or something.
it has to not matter if she were real it'd matter but she's not so it needs to be nothing or i can't
[function. already it's a struggle. she's had to shut down the non-essentials. seeing her like that - natural hair and eyes, but with the right personality - it hurt, and it would hurt exponentially more if she allowed herself to think about all that could have been. if only, if only, if only. she can't think about it, or else she won't be able to think about anything else, for a while.]
[It needs to be nothing. It needs to be nothing... it didn't make him feel better about what his mind and the gremlins' bullshit had brought onto the screen, but it made it easier to... tuck it away. Push it aside. It didn't have to be anything, it could just be nothing.]
I don't really wanna sit by myself not trying to think about it.
and I guess if you don't want to worry about it either
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<fenrir>
i believe you
it's fine
it's not your fault
you don't need to apologize to me
stuff like this happens a lot here
you didn't try to hurt me and it wasn't even real
<MainSqueeze>
okay that's fine
[Though at this point he's well aware he's just rambling on his keyboard.]
are
are YOU okay?
she's not here she's not real but
you still had to see that.
<fenrir>
[fine, fine, fine, she's fine. she can maintain. there's nothing he needs to worry about. she isn't going to hurt anyone.]
wasn't expecting her
not like that
but if she's not real i'm fine
it doesn't matter
<MainSqueeze>
[Her sister. Their friend. His most important person-- and for awhile, Ikusaba's too. Both times, his creation. And someone they shouldn't talk about anymore.]
it feels like it should
no, I'm not helping. forget about it.
um
steve rounded up a bunch of old movies and a vcr back when stuff was falling from the sky
if you want a distraction or something.
<fenrir>
if she were real it'd matter but she's not
so it needs to be nothing
or i can't
[function.
already it's a struggle. she's had to shut down the non-essentials. seeing her like that
- natural hair and eyes, but with the right personality - it hurt, and it would hurt exponentially more if she allowed herself to think about all that could have been. if only, if only, if only. she can't think about it, or else she won't be able to think about anything else, for a while.]
movies
?
okay
i can
if you want
<MainSqueeze>
I don't really wanna sit by myself not trying to think about it.
and I guess if you don't want to
worry about it either
it'd be a good way to spend time?
<fenrir>
okay
see you soon