I know that. how much he doesn't care what happens to him. and more than anything, I wish he would.
[The sight of his body, covered in blood and gasping for breath still haunts him. Even Komaeda's zealotry when they were Ultimate Despair was just the worst possible outcome for what he was already like.]
and I know I've already hurt him in the past without meaning to. and I know it's my own damn fault. I was useless back then, but I'm not useless now. I promised I would do everything in my power to protect him, and I'm going to.
I couldn't save him from this-- stupid fucking flower disease, but I'm not going to fail him again. I refuse.
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[The sight of his body, covered in blood and gasping for breath still haunts him. Even Komaeda's zealotry when they were Ultimate Despair was just the worst possible outcome for what he was already like.]
and I know I've already hurt him in the past without meaning to. and I know it's my own damn fault. I was useless back then, but I'm not useless now. I promised I would do everything in my power to protect him, and I'm going to.
I couldn't save him from this-- stupid fucking flower disease, but I'm not going to fail him again. I refuse.